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09:20 pm: Random thought...
Alright just a random thought that I want your guys' feedback on..

Do you think it is possible to look at someone for the first or second time meeting them and know they are the person you are going to marry?

Let me know what you think..

09:57 pm: My heart goes out to Mullen...
Tonight I got a call from Joe who I became friends with on my mission trip to Mullen, Nebraska and it was just sooo good to hear his voice and chat with him. It makes me think back to the trip and all the wonderful things that happened. Praise God. Oh and I got a lot of school work done today! I am very proud of myself. I have suddenly felt motivated.... I am glad it is here, and wish it would have came a long time ago! haha

11:27 pm: Good Song...
Artist/Band: Underwood Carrie
Lyrics for Song: Jesus, Take The Wheel
Lyrics for Album: Some Hearts

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It would been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way to fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was sooo scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on

Oh, Jesus take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, oh

10:02 pm: My head STILLL hurts....

08:34 pm: New meaning
I met a 6'6" Banana this weekend. Gwen Stafani's "Hollaback Girl" has a new meaning to me. You dance away you crazy Stephen Peternell!

09:44 pm: DANG>>>>>
Again, life suprises me at how hard yet sooo simple it can be. I mean you know that just this one thing is soo innocent compared to the world's standards and you know it will make you feel so much more loved. Also you know an increase in your confidence will arise because you will know you have won and you just want to laugh but at the same moment you wish to feel confident and warm and loved you know it will only last for a moment in time. The sense of joy is not aparent. The sense of satisfaction only truley gives you a feeling of disappiontment and a feeling of wanting more. What do you do when you know the answer is clear but your head and your heart are not agreeing.. you pray and automatically feel loved because someone is listening to you and they care. YOu feel confident in that your decision is now in the hands of the Ruler of the Universe. You feel joy because a once difficult decision has now been brought to a fun time of fellowship that will forever be remembered. You feel warm inside because you have felt that He has placed a blanket around your heart so it may be consealed until the one who is allowed to see will have the perfect timing for it to come off and not turn cold.

08:31 pm: Hip hip
Yea for friends even if they DO live far away!

11:23 pm: He was supposed to call... but he hasn't.....

01:00 am: Unable to sleep
I am unable to sleep this evening as my mind continues to look upon the current events of my life and the reason for each one. One event is the welcoming of my new little niece or nephew. Monday is the big day and I as the day comes closer I wonder what this little human being's personality will be like. I know God creates each of us with a purpose and our personalities help us to find our purpose and are one part of the body in which our purpose can be fulfilled. I have always been a caregiver. Ever since I can remember I was the "mom" in the group. I have always tried to make sure those around me are warm on a cold night, or comforted when disturbed with high school drama. I have ALWAYS wanted those close to me and those I don't even know very well to be happy and content. I have always wanted them to know they are loved. I look at the career I have chosen, Social Work, a low paying job with a high burn out rate and I see the purpose God has for me. Ever since I can remember my mom has always told me that I act older than I am because I try to take care of those around me. All these children want is to be loved and feel safe. God has given me my care giving personality to help me fulfill His purpose of showing children the true life is through Jesus Christ and that HE is the ultimate caregiver.

I know we all want to have purpose and I think that knowing yourself and having a true sense of yourself and loving that personality God has given you is the first task in being able to see God's purpose for you. Because when you know yourself you can see that you cannot do anything alone and that only by God do you have purpose and only seeking Him will help you find it.

So I challenge you all to look at yourselves this week and look at your personality. Not your habits which have been taught to you by the world but who you really are on the inside. I challenge you to check to see if you know your purpose for today, or tomorrow, or your career and if you don't to take it up with the one who does know. The one who has placed you specifically physically and mentally where you are at this moment in time. Many smiles,Landré

05:45 pm: hmm.
I should be really excited right now but I am not thanks to the father who decides I need a lecturing on a bolt that I found in my car today that I put in there after I had found it like a year ago and never told him about it probably because I forgot...... but still Landre what if it came from the seat or something you could die or something... My response.. I haven't died yet..... it might have been in the drive way and I picked it up, yea I think thats right. Who knows.....going to take a shower.

10:13 pm: blah blah blah
My mom is talking to me right now.....I really have nothing to say but I still posted because I wanted all of you to know that I am still alive.

11:23 pm: Hmm....?
Hi Everybody...

10:41 pm: grrr...
Why do I still talk to him? Can you tell me why? Stupid Stupid ME!
Also, Do I have to talk to my mom everyday? I mean do I really have to?

11:09 pm: hm....
Missing you....lots.......wish I could tell you.....not over the phone...maybe not ever....cant see if it is right...only feel that I want it to be...Missing you...lots.

04:49 pm: God DOES have perfect timing
Sometimes we forget that the all powerful God we serve is exactly what I just called him ALL Powerful. I was little bummed earlier this week because me and Jordan had planned a road trip to go see Luke and Nick but then it fell through on Wednesday. Little did I know that God had something totally different in store for me. Last summer I went to Lake Bloomington to volunteer for a week at this camp for the local Residential Treatment Center (behavioral problemed kids) and loved it because that is pretty close to what I want to do in my social work area but since I got a real job this summer I wasnt planning on going. But it had been on my heart lately so I decided to ask my boss if I could take off work and he said yes! What makes this so great is that I will be leaving the same day to go volunteer as I would have if I was going up to visit the boys for the weekend. Yes, I am still bummed that I dont get to see Luke and Nick but I can talk to Luke and I will see them in a month. The assurance that God does want me at the camp and that Im going to be able to do that is so much more than the heartache of missing the guys. Anyway, never forget God has a specific plan for you and seek his timing for it is perfect.

04:51 pm: Naps are a wonderful thing!
I took a nap today only for like 20 min but it was wonderful
Kayla I watched Goonies today with Kailey well accept 20 minutes. hahah
Going downtown tonight and so excited got my high heels on and ready to have a blast.
Sarah is coming with. SHe is awesome
Her b/f wade is even cooler!
Hung out with a lead singer yesterday. Toby... he kicks butt! Funniest person I know.. hahhaha ROCK ON!
Call me!

06:00 pm: I am leaving in my ford explorer dont know when Ill be back again
Going to Nashville and I might like it so much that I might not come back! Just kidding I would miss all of you way too much! Im really excited to be going though. I am going to see Rascal Flatts in concert. Umm Dierks... my future husband.. Keith Urban... HOTT! haha and some other people so Im just really excited. ALso, Luke has orientation at the same time that I will be down there so hopefully I will get to see him:)I will try to post everyday so you guys can know what kind of trouble I get into everyday ;) I love you all and hope you have a good rest of the week. Id appreciate prayers cause I am driving to Indy and we all know that im a crappy driver! haha. Many smiles!
* And oh if anyone sees Shelby tell him I hope he has a freakin awesome summer! Little annoyed with him...
** Double oh Kayla listen to MXPX Everything Sucks (when your gone)makes me think of my friends that are gone.... haha fits perfectly

10:44 pm: We're So Far Away...
I dont know if any of you have herd Mae and their new CD EverGlow. If you havent you need to cause their music is pretty kickin. So God is pretty sweet and he makes me life pretty freakin awesome but yet sometimes I still complain about stuff. For exampple today Natalie and I were talking about how next year is going to be so different because we wont see our friends everyday. We both agreed the thought is totally depressing but full of excitement at the same time. Lately I have been thinking about my future and where its going. I love that I am going to college and that im going to be learning about how to help kids take their behavioral disorders and control them so they can return to society and get jobs and have wonderful lives and stuff, but at the same time many times I wish I could just run...not nessarily fun away from problems but just run and DO something. I wanna go to Hati and meet the girl I sponser and help children down there get adopted and out of those crummy orphanages and I want to go to the beaches of California or the streets of New York and hang out with kids my age and tell them they DO have a purpose in life. I wanna run to London and work or start a clinic for behavioral troubled kids. The family that brought us to Mullen to help them and their community are here this weekend. Im totally excited to see them familar faces in a world that sometimes is not so familar because I know the goal we share between us where sometimes those around me are not so familar. I want to feel the familarness here with some around me here though to. I feel like I need to stop doing just the little things to show people who Christ is but I need to add to that and push people in huge ways. I have no idea how this became so long but I must be going to sleep because Kayla and I had so much fun that we didnt want to stop having fun last night! Night All

11:29 pm: Its almost Sunday....
Its so sad that the weekend is almost over! I am definately going to love college life. Anyway.. Kay. I only herd part of your message last night about how you were doing something and that you wouldnt be back in town. If there were other directions to call you back or something I am sorry I didnt catch them. Amanda and I were kinda going crazy in the car. I came home from work to find Ben and Heathe here and I ate supper with them and then Amanda called and wanted to go see Kasie so we did for a little bit and totally messed up Kamryn and her friend and then we went and suprised Emily and saw Wade and had a good time so thats where I was when I got your message and I couldnt really hear. It sounds like you had a fabulous time though and I am happy. Keera I hope work went well tonight and that none of you got into too much trouble. I didnt end up going to Eureka tonight (kayla) we decided it was too late and we were too tired so i stopped by my g-ma's house instead and then went to Markus' house for a little bit to help Cindy decide stuff about his room. Long story... I am off to bed None of this is irrelevant to anything. Mainly I just wanted to say I hope you all had a funfulled SAFE night and I will talk to you all on Monday. Oh.. Kayla and Keera I am going down to Fuel tomorrow night if you guys want to come with.Give me a call if you want to. Bye My Loves!

10:36 pm: Illini are the best!
ILL.......... INI.........!