Current mood:	thankful
Current music:	Brighter Than Sunshine-Aqualung

Unable to sleep
I am unable to sleep this evening as my mind continues to look upon the current events of my life and the reason for each one. One event is the welcoming of my new little niece or nephew. Monday is the big day and I as the day comes closer I wonder what this little human being's personality will be like. I know God creates each of us with a purpose and our personalities help us to find our purpose and are one part of the body in which our purpose can be fulfilled. I have always been a caregiver. Ever since I can remember I was the "mom" in the group. I have always tried to make sure those around me are warm on a cold night, or comforted when disturbed with high school drama. I have ALWAYS wanted those close to me and those I don't even know very well to be happy and content. I have always wanted them to know they are loved. I look at the career I have chosen, Social Work, a low paying job with a high burn out rate and I see the purpose God has for me. Ever since I can remember my mom has always told me that I act older than I am because I try to take care of those around me. All these children want is to be loved and feel safe. God has given me my care giving personality to help me fulfill His purpose of showing children the true life is through Jesus Christ and that HE is the ultimate caregiver.

I know we all want to have purpose and I think that knowing yourself and having a true sense of yourself and loving that personality God has given you is the first task in being able to see God's purpose for you. Because when you know yourself you can see that you cannot do anything alone and that only by God do you have purpose and only seeking Him will help you find it.

So I challenge you all to look at yourselves this week and look at your personality. Not your habits which have been taught to you by the world but who you really are on the inside. I challenge you to check to see if you know your purpose for today, or tomorrow, or your career and if you don't to take it up with the one who does know. The one who has placed you specifically physically and mentally where you are at this moment in time. Many smiles,Landré